"This is the verity for a lot of you
And how you always stand
From the outside looking in
Now did you ever feel you are so open minded
That you don't really belong anywhere
Well I've been there too

I spend two years
To figure out myself
I say it's your time now
Your time to rise
This isn't your only choice
But your best choice
Refuse to stay put and watch this cancer grow
Until it explodes, we must interfere
Before the shit hits the fan

Why are these vultures circling over me
I'm not dead yet
Used silence as a language for too long
This is where we make our stand
The wounds at my back begin to heal
Our enemy outnumber us three to one
But still we fight on

Someone has to build
Even if it's severe
A bridge between the worlds
We shoulder it for you
All borders will be removed
To create a better existence"
~Sonic Syndicate
...Again

It's been too long, huh? I've been kinda waiting for something to happen so that I could make a journal with something exciting in it Not too much is going on though. Between my Niece being up here for a while, to taking care of my father, I've been kinda busy.

Been half sick with a Flu for about 3 days now. I remember back in my old days I just seemed to be impervious to sickness. My Immune System seemed to be top notch, and it's like overnight, I went from 21 to 42 Whatever, I'll get over it.

But there's a another reason why I choose to write a Journal today. It actually has to do with this song. But first I have to confess something...

My Niece is almost a year old, and she's been up at my place quite often (about 1 or 2 weeks a month). But I haven't spoken a word to her yet... Don't get me wrong, I like her and everything. I've picked her up, I've smiled at her and she's smiled back. She likes the sound of my voice when I'm speaking to someone else. I just... Don't know what to say. But here's my inside Logic to this:

A Chinese Saying I once discovered said that "A Child Is Like A Blank Piece Of Paper" or more or less a Scribbler. That every action says something to the Child, and it effects them. (a Pie to anyone who knows when I've said this before) I'm thinking that maybe this is holding me back, that if I say the wrong thing it might effect her for life (Silly, I know but...). But if I don't say ANYTHING, isn't that worse? She knows that I'm not Ignoring her, she knows I care (I think) I just... Don't know what to say.

It's weird, because I can talk to animals just fine. Most people may think it's weird (Like when I ask the cat where I left the salt) but it feels... Natural to me. I feel like they can understand me when I speak to them (Not always getting a response, of course). Maybe it's because I understand them too, I donno.

Anyway, I want to explain why I choose Fallout for this situation. Judging by the lyrics (if you read them) it's about Changing the World. It's hard to explain what it means to be a Parent, isn't it? You take Responsibility for the Child, Raise it and take care of it until it's grown up. But is that all? It shouldn't. And this is where Fallout comes in; Being a Parent means you SHOULD Create A World for your Child, no? It's also your responsibility to Make this place into a Better world to live in... To Create A Better Existence. The World IS Your Childrens Living Quarters, Shouldn't You Take Care Of It? So that one day they can say "Thanks Mom/Dad." And you reply "Well, I Tried."